tuesday

breakfast ... 3 eggs. 210
lunch.... cheese. 100
snack.... yogurt. 100
shit tone of crackers. 200

gym. -250

dinner... 3 pieces liver. 150
one potato. 150

total = 910
- 250

== 660.

that will do.
i will prolly do 100 crunches before bed and some stretching though>

that goddamn dress is in and i have actually gained weight again. im 177. i was down to 173.

i dont think i ever updated it but Novemeber 2010 i was 225 pounds. HOW THE FUCK DID THAT HAPPEN???? but anyways. its been a year and a bit and dood, i fucking lost 50 goddamn pounds. so. im pretty happy with that but i mean imagine had i STAYED at 175 and lost 50 pounds? ID BE DONE NOW. but noooooo little lard ass had to sit and eat and gobble up all the food and be all whiney and depressed. god Ellie, get your fucking head out of your ass.

THAT DRESS MUST BE ALTERED. i want it taken in two fucking sizes.

September 14th, the deadline is going to be early August. GET MOVING.

i wanna cry because it feels so fucking impossible. i cant do it. but i cant give up. i just am so conflicted about where i stand in regardsw to my health and my obessions. BLARG.

no thinspo, im starting to repeat it since i having gathered anything new sincde last march. sorry loves.

xoxoxo
Queenie