SIX POUNDS

i lost six pounds.

i dont know why i took lax when i hadnt eaten. all that happened ws incredible stomach pain.

i miss activia. i had peas and hot sauce. im afraid of my metalobism going wonky again so im ... i dont know what im doing.

i feel guilty eating those peas. like 80 cals of peas. PEAS. fuck,

i want to wear my BCBG dress to gallery opening. i want to be lighter when i see him again. i want him to see i am capable and im hot stuff and he just fucking lost out big.

i want to be everything all at once.
thats whats stopping me

xoxox