yogurt only

and apples. im banning all other foods from my life.

fifteen pounds

if i can just drop 15lbs in the next two weeks i would be so happy.

all my food is going bad though and im kinda spazzing. can you freeze apples??

xoxo
queenie

down two pounds

woot.

did a l;ot of walking, going to do more then do my exercises.

gotta regain control here

xoxo
queenie

forgot the tinspo;

blaaaaaaaarrfffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

gained. maintained. cant lose. so pissed.

bought special teas. i unno. prolly wont help but i like the idea of tea being a meal.
god give me strength.


I AM FAT AS A FUCKING FATFUCK. like Diana. hate it.

some thinspos, some reverse too cuz i cant stand that bitch and now my BF is saying how im starting to look like her.

blarg

im emotionally and physically exhausted.

yogurt 100
crackers 100
nutella 100
bread 240
eggs 140
butter and mayo 140
mushrooms and onions (all that times two, sandwich for lunch and dinner)

like a billion. death.


xoxo
Queenie

lol. The UK

i came to post about how I bought polo mints today and I wish i had bought many many mor. I got some simpkins blackcurrant pastielles too and i decided to check my traffic. apaprently Google UK sends people here, which is hilarious given the fact im eating polo mints and talking about british candies, my faves.

i did groeries, i have pictures of my food stores lol, its a bit dirty but. and you'll notice i live off yogurt, grapefruit juice and apples. and tinned fish. i have so much food but i cant eat it... its overwhelming lol. i an SUCH as food hoarder.

Tumblr

god there are so many blogging devices. i got to accustomed to my-diary.org, and then live journal and in turn here. im not sure i can move again. im staying put.

if anything i will just ask tumblr..ers? if i can link to them from here, some of them have really lively blogs going on. its nice, because all my old thinspo classics seemingly died, no new updates in monthes. sadness.

xoxo
stay strong

BLARGH

he stayed a week.

I GAINED FIVE POUNDS.
i am not happy.



and now im lonelly he is gone.


im going to be a bridesmaid, i had better kick it into high gear man, ommmmfgggg. fat fat fat

superbowl sunday + anniversary

avoiding football snacks. avoiding football snacks.

brkfst, an activia.

currently slaving away making cornish hens with stuffring and roast potatoes and carrots and onions with alfredo pasta and brockers. and green peas. i love peas. and yesterday i made two apple pies, and an apple strawberry pie, and today im making pumpkin pies and peach pie and lil blueberry tarts.

i wanna own a pie shoppe. i love making pies.

post thinspo later. if i can. the boy is coming today <3

xoxoxo
Queenie
staty strong

realization

a blurb.

i will never actually have my dream wedding because my anxiety will prevent me from it. i just realized this today, and its breaking my heart. also the fact im having a panic attack about signing a marriage liscence while people watch or pick out a dress or any of it is also freaking me out.

xoxo
Queenie

thinspo

yogurt - 100
eggs - 70x2 140
bread - 100x2 (whole grain omfg best bread ever) 200

total sofar, 440.

Two Days

omfg my goal of being 5lbs lighter on the fifth UNGH. i have TWO DAYS.

yesterday i had The Keg with my boyfriend for our valentines day thing cuz hes going to be in the USA (prolly) training for his job, and then today I had borthday dinner with my dad. Hes 51. so cute.

so yesterday. was bad. it was a snow day and I was lazy and we decided to have "family lunch" which was us in the studio ordering swiss chalet. i had chicken and a potato (big effing surprise) so like, i dont know where my book is but for all intents and purposes the chicken is like 450 and a bp is 220 plus 140 for the butter and sourcreme (70 each). and then Keg I had prime rib with mash and brockers and mushrooms, LOADS of hot hot horseradish (so fucking good) a small cesear, two pieces of tuna (why does raw tuna steak taste like fuckimg God? i hate tuna, atleast in a tin), 1/4 of the bread loaf, three glasses of wine, a spanish coffee and 1/2 creme brulee plus public makeouts and giggle fit.

Then we had possibly the best sex of our adult lives, like. you have no idea, wow.

today we had burgers and fries for lunch and for dinner i had a steak and Guinness stew with potato and green beans aaaaand iced tea. i am a fucking cow. I weigh 175 on the dot and I think im gonna shit like a fucking i unno tonight.

all that horse raddish and then today i loaded my burger with hotsauce and hot peppers cuz i am like queen of hotshit.

i need to ramp it up, i can do better, im so not even trying. i hate that avbout this. i KNOW i am better than this. UNGH.

anyways nights my lovelies <3